Hello my dear covenspacers!  Drastic changes have recently occured in my life.  My divorce is almost completely over.  Just have to sign the papers.  I'm glad that will be coming to an end soon.  I also have broken up for good with my good-for-nothing boyfriend, Morgan.  On December 29th he got arrested for basically trying to kill me.  I've got a restraining order against him, and we'll be heading to court for his criminal charges soon.  I'm not backing down, I'm going forward with them... he is charged with domestic violence,  counts of assault with a deadly weapon and 1 count of battery with a deadly weapon.  Please everyone send energy to him getting what he deserves coming to him.  I want him to do jail time for this.

As of right now, I am living with my sister and her family... I'm trying to get my own place so I can get my girls to come live with me again.  Life has been a rollercoaster... and i wanna puke.. but, I am still riding waiting for my next high.

 

Love,

DemonicFairy

Hello my dear friends.

It has been so long since I have stopped by to say hello, send an email or a comment to any of you.  It has been so long since I've even gotten online.  I have missed you all though, and I am hoping that now I will have more time to check my site more often and correspond with all of you once again.

To give you a quick update on what has happened in this lil' demonic fairy's life since we last spoke.... basically CHAOS.   I had finally gotten my husband to move out of the house, and things were going pretty well.  I was so much less stressed, the divorce was in my grasp, and my life was moving along just swimmingly.  Much to my dismay, a family member of mine (who had known of my infidelity and had saved some inappropriate pictures from a long deleted profile) decided that I just didn't have enough drama in my life, and decided to share all this information with the husband.  Needless to say, he was devestated.  He was angry, betrayed and full of hate for me at that moment (all understandbly so).  However, what happened next was not something I would have ever guessed him capable of.  I came home from work the following day, waiting for him to drop the kids off to me when I get a couple of unexpected visitors.  I open the door to find two policemen there with an ex parte order to lock me up. (Basically a Baker Act).  They hauled me off to a local mental facility against my will where I was forced to stay until I was able to go thru all the channels (seeing a nurse, counselor, ect.. until I finally could see a doctor).  When I was able to actually see the psychiatrist, they released me and said I was not crazy.  Unfortunately, while I was locked up, my husband took it upon himself to move back into the house, change the locks, move his father and step mother in, and take my children.  When I got out of the hospital, I demanded to see my kids.  He refused (which legally he could not).  We fought and fought but I finally got to see them!  In the next few days, I had child protective services called on me and my boyfriend... cops showed up at his apartment at least twice because they got 911 calls saying I was getting beat up or that I was trying to kill myself... I have seen more cops in the last two weeks than I have in my entire life.  I also found out one of my best friends had been in touch with my husband and family giving them every bit of information they had (and most of it not true)... all the while talking to me and telling me "remember, you can trust me, I'm here for you".... whatever.  I have lost my friend, my family, but luckily not my children!  I have gotten them back now!!  I still have an uphill battle coming up with the divorce and custody issues... financial issues, and just plain depression issues... but, dammit, my girls are my world, and they fucked up when they tried to steal them from me.. now they're going to see a real DEMONic fairy.... I was trying so hard to be nice and passive, agreeing with everyone so as not to start fights or confrontations... but, they brought the bitch out in me... and now they will have to deal with that part of me.  If you can, please light a candle for me and my girls.  We need all the help and protection we can get.  I have to stand up and fight now...

Other than that... still got the office job, still got the boyfriend, still got my sanity (and now it's doctor approved...haha). 

DeMoNiCfAiRy

Hey gang!  I decided to put a profile back up on myspace..  it's not completely together yet, but if any of you have a myspace page and want to add me, my addy is:

myspace.com/demonicfairy31

Check me out!

 

So I just found out a friend of mine that I would party with from time to time, was found dead in his bed on Sunday night.  No more details.  Don't know if he overdosed, or killed himself or what... I had just talked to him on Saturday night too.. life is strange...and short!  Which makes me wonder... what the heck is it that I truly want out of this life I have?  I know I want love (true love, comforting love, pure love).  I know I want happiness (spiritual, physical and emotional).  And I know I want it to have a purpose (somehow, some way).

So, I've got to thinking... what's my purpose?  Well, I'm a mommy.  I'm a daughter, a sister, a granddaughter, aunt & cousin.  I don't think I'm going to find the cure for cancer or anything.  But, I could make a difference in the lives of my family and friends.  People I love and trust.  I could make a promise to myself to spend more time with them.  To talk to them, and help them out.  I could take my grandmother to the store more often, and just call my mom to chat.  I can raise my girls to be positive, intelligent, spiritual women who will have so much to offer the world in return.

Happiness... spiritually, I believe I have found that.  I've been practicing paganism since I was 17.  I find it fullfilling and empowering.  Physically, I could be happier.  I could start to take better care of myself.  Drink more water.  Maybe even make time to dance once in a while.. that makes me happy :)  Emotionally...that one is tougher.  I know that I am my emotions.  I control my emotions.  I just have a hard time reigning them in.  I need to find a way to center myself.. maybe thru meditation or yoga.  I need to become happy with myself so my emotions will not get the better of me.

And last but not least...love.  That is where I get stumped.  Love is hard to find.  You think you have it, then you don't.  You think your relationship is one way, and then come to find out it's not.  Maybe this is the hardest one, because it depends on not just myself, but another person as well.  And goddess knows, as much as I want to control said other person, haha, I cannot. For some reason I am finding this part of my life to be controlling every other aspect of my goals I mentioned before.  I am finding myself giving up certain ideas of my own happiness and security to compromise and look the other way at faults of the other person.  Yet, as much as my guts tell me to run, I find myself frozen.  I cannot do anything, either way.  I am scared to run, but I am also scared of what will happen if I don't.  I look for divine enlightenment in every little thing.  I try to hear the goddess speak to me and tell me what to do.  I just haven't gotten any response yet...of course, maybe I have, and I don't want to hear it.  I just want to find that great love of my life, the one where I don't have to be hurting every other day.. the kind where it all just falls together so nicely.

Life is short... I have to figure out how I want to spend it...

DeMoNiCfAiRy

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? No

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Yesterday

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?  Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't 

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?  Turkey

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?  Yes, two beautiful girls :)

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Of course!

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT? Nah, not me.. never.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?  Yep

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?  Nooooooo

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?  Captain Crunch

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? I never wear shoes with ties

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? Not often

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Mint chocolate chip

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Their eyes.

15.FAVOURITE COLOUR? Pink and black

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOU?  My emotions

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?  Myself

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? I hope other people fill it out :)

19. WHAT COLOR TROUSERS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? Happy bunny pajama pants, pink with happy bunny skulls... no shoes.

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? A bagel this morning

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Bobby Mcgee by Janis Joplin

22. IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Pink

23. FAVORITE SMELLS? nag champa, jasmine, and bread baking

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My mom

25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? No one

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?  None.  Hockey if I HAD to choose..

27. HAIR COLOR? Blonde

28. EYE COLOR? Blue

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?  No

30. FAVORITE FOOD? Italian or Chinese

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Happy endings

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?  The fifth Harry Potter

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Black

34. SUMMER OR WINTER? WINTER, please!!!!!!

35. HUGS OR KISSES? Both!  or kisses if I must choose!

36. FAVORITE DESSERT? Ice cream sundae

37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
No idea

38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND
No idea

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? Stardust

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?  I have a lap top.. don't have a mouse pad

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T.V. LAST NIGHT? Meerkat Manor

42. FAVORITE SOUNDS? The ocean, music, my baby singing to me...

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Rolling Stones

44. WHAT IS THE FURTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? I guess that would be when I was in Hondurus

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? Yes, but I cannot tell you what it is ;P

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Miami, FL

47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
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